Need help with my personality problems

Hello guys. I have really low self-esteem and can only make up for it by trying to act tough and fill PMs with potty language and trying to cause trouble by making silly post because I was banned before for acting like a child.

I'm chainie and I think I'm a gansta and I'm really mad I got banned before so I thought I'd try again with something even more silly, not realizing that JMI doesn't care about these childish tantrams and will just edit my post so I don't look very bright.

And isn't it funny that I do these things, when on the Forum where I am a moderator we have Rule #9, which states:

"9. If you flame a moderator or start to pm him with insults or flames you will be dealt with severly. If you have problems with a moderator or other team member then you can take it up with [the Admin] or any of the other staff but if you choose to act a fool, your case will be ignored period!"

But I probably will not grow up anytime soon and will probably continue to demonstrate my lack of maturity with these silly efforts.

chainie